Soon

a new post is coming I promise! We got out of the house this weekend and took my hubby out on an adventure..lots of pictures and a story of him loosing our baby boy...

But for now its back to our normal daily routine and back to the things I've been neglecting...like the laundry, cleaning the house and cooking and even back to therapy for a few more weeks and that dreaded alarm that goes off at 5!

Delirious

Don't ask...I have been up since about 7:30 Thanksgiving morning. I really tried to get a little bit of sleep, but not much luck there. I was one of the crazy ones to get up and go get a few things at 5 in the morning. I got them though and now I just need two more thing and I am finished with Christmas shopping!! Yeah as I hate shopping!! I have been busy scrubbing half the house. I cleaned my bedroom and Nathan's room, we pitched a lot of broken stuff and just plain ole junk!

Yesterday was a beautiful day. We had a great Thanksgiving...we went to my mom and dad's house and had lunch with my brother and his family. We went around the table and said what we were thankful for and Nathan was so cute, he of course said family and then he said can I add that my dad didn't die he just got broken and thats OK, cause he's fixable..it was hard not to bust out laughing..he was so serious and you would just have to know how Nate talks to really get this. Any way I of course was pretty much thankful for much the same, but more importantly I was/am thankful for the everyday ordinary little miracles. I know that these pesky kids drive me crazy some days, but truth be told I wouldn't have it any other way. I know that they are who they are and who they are suppose to be, yes Marshall and Amelia have a terminal illness, but if they didn't have it they would be who they are. I wouldn't be who I am and I don't know if I would be as strong as I am with out them. I truly do view them as a blessing, as I do with every child, but you know what I mean here. I have never questioned why, why me or why my children, I know that they were put here for a reason and to teach me lessons, that I would have never learned ever before and oh boy have they taught me a lot.
Well I don't want to ramble any more and my head feels like it is about 40 pounds so I am off to lala land........
I really hope that you all had a wonderfully blessed Thanksgiving! I know that the next month is going to fly by. But try and enjoy the season!

Poor Dog....

Can you say scared Sh*tless.....

He's at it again.....

This one is his pet...he even put a leash on this one...... (hehehehe)


Can you see why there is never a dull moment around this house!!! He likes to keep us on our toes.

Thanksgiving Blessings.....

I found this in a magazine recently and thought that is was so good I had to put it up for you all to pass on too.....

Be Thankful

Consider the following facts.
Then count your blessings.

~~~~ If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep.......you are richer than 75 percent of the people in the world.

~~~~ If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace.......you are among the top 8 percent of the world’s wealthy.

~~~~ If you woke up this morning with more health than illness..... you are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week.

~~~~ If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation.....you are a head of 500 million people in the world.

~~~~ If you can attend a church or other place of worship with out fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death.....you are more blessed than three billion in the world.

~~~~ If your parents are still alive and still married.....you are very rare (and your parents too!) {Tyren and I are both very rare...his parents have been married for 59 years and my parents have been married for 46 this January}

~~~~ If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful...you are blessed because the majority can, but most do not.

~~~~ If you can read this message, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world who cannot read at all.

~~~~ Have a good day, count your blessings, and pass this along to remind everyone else how blessed we all are.

{on the next page this was written}

INSPIRATION

They can conquer who believe they can.
VirgilRoman
epic poet(70 BC- 19BC)

It’s not that some people have willpower and some don’t. It’s that some people are ready to change and others are not.
James Gordon M.D.


The path to our destination is not always a straight one. We go down the wrong road, we get lost, we turn back. Maybe it doesn’t matter which road we embark on. Maybe what matters is that we embark.
Barbara Hall
Northern Exposure, Rosebud, 1993

Today is truly a blessing...no one is promised tomorrow. Make the most of what you have today and be thankful in all things. Tell the ones that you love that you love them and those that you care about that you really do care. You may never get that chance and regret it. So to my friends and family I truly do love and care about you and that you are all in my life, some I see every day others a lot less often, some I have never met in person (Hi Stephanie) but know that I love them and care about them and are great cyber friends!! I've lost friends and people who I truly cared about and loved in one way or another...(yes "D" if you are out there, that would mean you!) I miss them deeply, but I know that I am truly blessed for all that are in my life and those that have come and gone. For knowing them has made me the stronger person that I am today and I know that I can! No matter what it is I CAN.....
So as we approach this day of Thanksgiving please consider all the blessing that you have and truly be thankful for them.

Blessings,

This boy....

You see this boy...yeah he's cute and all innocent looking, but he's really not!! He has a conspiracy going on here....

He either want to give me heart failure or he really wants me to pee in my pants!!



Oh and you want to know why......




As I was walking out the back door this is what I spotted...

Upon closer investigation...

Yeah its a fake!

Umm excuse my while I go change pants.....

Hi Ho....

Hi Ho off to the doctors we must go....

kinda see a pattern here.

I think everyday this week we have had a doctors visit or therapy appointment.
Today I'm taking Ty to our family doctor, I think they want to make sure he is not getting pneumonia, since it is still really hurting when he breaths deep.

I took him out on Tuesday with me to the Gym. He did OK, just no real comfortable positions for him to get in, but it was good for him to get out. He is so bored, he is usually a busy body.

Tuesday also found me at the allergist with Marshall, shot and a check up on his asthma.
Wednesday it was off to the dentist for Marshall. Not so much happy news for him. He has to have his wisdom teeth taken out by an oral surgeon. We have that consult appointment on Dec. 1st. Busy, busy......

Today will be my last day for sanity for a while, well whats left of my sanity anyway, if there ever was any to begin with.....
Kids will be off this week for Thanksgiving holiday! I think the ONLY thing I am looking forward to is no alarm going off at 4:45am!!

Here are a few pictures of the back of Ty's leg...it was completely purple, it is getting better (color wise). His other leg is starting to be less bruised too, but those ribs and stuff are still hurting.

I'm thinking I am going to go back to school soon! I think I have made my mind up that I am going to go back and be a nurse. I have, after all, had plenty of practice.

Well gotta run and get dressed, but I just have to leave you with this precious photo....

I love 'em, even though I must continually clean after the both of them....

WHY?

Why?

Why must I wake up to these messes?

This dog is a pain in a butt he picks out what he wants to eat and the rest is all over the floor!
This mess well.....

as I got a closer look this is what he was busy doing....

Can you see it? It's his Christmas list!!!
1. D-rex ( a robotic dinosaur)

2. Screechers, another dinosaur

and

3. is Spike the Dinosaur....


and the list keeps growing............

1. is a big Bakhugan
2. An airplane
3. is a m16 bb gun
4. Everything you use for hunting is what I want
5. I want more camouflage clothes...

hehehehehe

A quick glimpse...

I really intended on doing a good update tonight....

No really I did...not that it would have said much.......
We had a pretty quiet weekend.
Marshall for the first time ever went with the church on a 2 night camping fall retreat. That was a big step for him! I think that was the first time that he spent the night a way, other than my parents house. But you have to understand all the "bad" things happened to Marshall in the middle of the night (like his brain hemorrhage) and I guess those are things that you just don't let go of. I, for one, know that it is nearly impossible to get that image of him laying there, throwing up blood and telling me his head hurts, out of my mind or the picture of him in the ER room just laying there..those are the images that seem to stick with me and just won't go away. Especially when I am laying there trying to get to sleep. Here lately it is the image of Ty in the ER on the stretcher with the neck brace on and laying on the board and tons of people all around him with his clothes all cut up/off and him shaking and taking short shallow breaths....there were people everywhere working on him and tons of sheriff's deputies, captains and chiefs and all. Why do those images stick in our heads? I guess it is because they are so traumatic. You can feel your whole life change in a matter of seconds....milliseconds! Change comes and you embrace the new and are thankful for everything you have. Sometimes change is good, sometimes not...but it is what it is and life goes on...you breathe in and you breathe out, putting one foot in front of the other and just do it! Yeah who doesn't want to be somebody else, who we think has better lives than us...but truth is, grass is not always greener on the other side! You know what I miss most right now is a great big hug, being held so tightly by Ty...something so simple, yet some may never get that chance again, I will...just when he heals more!

Sorry I seemed to have rambled there...
Amelia, spent most of the weekend out at my mom and dad's house, so that meant that we just had the wild man.....
Since the weather was nice, he spent most of his weekend out side in his camouflage attire...which I hate because when I go to look for him it makes it really hard to spot him. Thankfully he has gotten better at answering me when I call him, especially after our scare this summer!!!

Ty is bored, which I think is a good sign. Tomorrow morning I am going to the gym, he said he was going to take a ride with me and sit up there and talk with the front desk people, while I take the group strength class. At least it gets him out of the house for a little while. Then I have to check Marshall out of school take him to get his glasses fixed and to the allergist for shots and check ups...I feel it never ends. I still need to make an appointment with the endocrinologist and the dentist for both Marshall and Amelia.
Friday is the doctor for Ty, our general practitioner, not for anything specific, just because the hospital stressed to us more than once to go and see him in two weeks...
I started my two times a week therapy today and should be able to start jogging/running soon. Maybe I'll run a way from here for a while? Just kidding...these people would be 100% completely LOST with out me!! Which only means it is really time for them to start to standing on their own two feet.
Well I'm headed to bed...hoping for rest and peace or just some peaceful rest! 5:00 am comes just to dang early!!
Good night... I'll let you know how our venture goes....

Our new Motto...

God knows I love me some Dave.....

Dave Matthews, that is and some Kenny Chesney and this is Ty and I's new song!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IT2t5oy9wgM
it is so worth listening to!!!



I'm Alive...Kenny Chesney fet Dave Matthews


so damn easy
to say that lifes so hard
everybodys got there share of battle scars
as for me i'd like to thank my lucky stars
that I'm alive and well

It'd be easy
to add up all the pain
and all the dreams you sat and watched
go up in flames
dwell on the wreckege
as it smolders in the rain
but not me, im alive



(chours)
and today you know thats good enough for me
breathin in and out's a blessing can't you see
todays the first day of the rest of my life
and I'm alive and well

yeah im alive and well

stars are dancing on the water here tonight
its good for the soul when theres no soul in sight
this boat has caught its wind and brought me back to life
now im alive and well

and today you know thats good enough for me
breathin in and outs a blessing can't you see
todays the first day of the rest of my life and
im alive and well

yeah im alive and well


Can't be said better any other way!!

Out the Funk

Ok, I am pretty much out of the funk that I had been in all last week. It was just a little hard to wrap my mind around the events of that week and exactly where we stood. I learned, in times of need, just who your friends really are and that I have a lot of great people in which to surround my self with! I realize that my husband is my whole life and means more to me than anything else in this world. I also realize how much he helped out. Its not always the big things its the little things, like giving Nate a bath, or starting the clothes for me, even washing dishes in the sink sometimes. Now I am doing it all, including waiting on him hand a foot, which I totally don't mind at all...I just need to start teaching my kids to be more independent and not to rely on me!!! Much easier said than done...lots of times it is just easier and quicker for me to do it. I will learn in time.. Wed was a doctor day for both Ty and I, his appointment with the ortho doc was in the morning and mine was in the afternoon. After visiting the ortho doc I now understand more of Ty's injuries. He has a tibial plateau fracture, there is a part at the top of the tibia that looks a little triangular and it is broken just a tiny part at the top is still attached so they have his leg in a immobilizer splint, if nothing moves it can heal right where it is! If any thing shifts then we are looking at a night mare to fix it all, mainly because he already has a steel rod in that leg and the doctor said it just makes it a little harder to attach hardware to hardware! We return in three weeks take more x-rays to see where it is and all that good stuff and then take it from there again.

My appointment went well, I still have a few more weeks left of therapy, but now I go twice a week instead of 3xs a week. I am going to go in the afternoons so that I can start back at the gym on a regular basis. I haven't been sleeping well this past week and want to get back into a routine. I am sure part of it is missing the gym but another part is I am sleeping by myself in our bed, because it is still too hard fro Ty to lay flat in the bed and get up, with his ribs hurting so badly so he has taken up residency in the recliner in the living room.
Anyway, I think that my leg is about 5* from being completely straight. One good thing is I can walk normal now! No more Quasimodo walking for me!
I know by the end of these next 6 to 8 weeks I will be so worn down and so ready for our cruise!!! The three days at Disney well not so much, the hubby better be able to do a lot of walking by then, cause if not I will not be pushing him around (again) in a wheelchair at Disney World!! I did that 10 years ago when he had that rod put in! If he can't do a lot of walking, we will just have to rent a motorized one!! Well I'm getting way ahead of myself here and need to just take it one day at a time. Trying to remember how to breathe in and breathe out and let it all go........................................................learning, little step, by little step..........

Every time we seem to get our heads above the water....some one comes along and pushes us back under!! Well my husband didn't want to go to the motorcycle skills competition because he didn't want to ruin his gear or boots....well needless to say it is all ruined anyway. His boots were cut off of him, everything was cut off of him except for his duty rig...pants, shirts,undies. I really don't know any other way other than utter chaos. If things are calm then I feel that there is something wrong, chaos has seem to become our norm around here!

Anyway, we had a good weekend despite what happened. Ty came home on Saturday night, with a walker and a wheelchair. He is in extreme pain, but he will heal. Sunday was a quiet day for us. He woke up that morning and with tears in his eyes told me happy birthday and how thankful he was to be here to celebrate it with me! He is such a wonderful man! We both have thanked God, because we both know that it could have been a lot worse.
He will probably be out of work for at least 6 to 8 weeks if not more. I am sure it is going to take 6 weeks for the bones to heal and then I am sure he will need therapy too. He will return to the motorbike when he is able too. It's his job and he likes it. I am OK with that too. Does it make it any easier for me,...NO. But it is what it is, I just say a little prayer for him when he leaves for God to take care of him through the day and bring him safely home to us at night. I said that very prayer on Friday morning when I heard the bike crank up and I know that God heard it!!
The kids were all OK. Nathan was the only one that was a little anxious. I think once he was able to see his dad for things to sink in he was better. He's only 6 and didn't quite understand the concept of what had happened. He still doesn't understand that he can't run up and squeeze his daddy, but he's learning and I am sure Ty hopes sooner than latter.


As far as his salary is concerned I have no idea how or if he will be getting paid, I am sure that workman's comp should kick in soon, but that is not saying much...we will do what we can do!


Right now we are waiting for the case workers to get us appointments with the doctors so we can get a more definite answer to what is really going on in the leg and how long are we talking about being out. I received one phone call today and have not heard from anyone since...it's gonna be a long week.


The kids had a half a day of school, thanks to Hurricane/tropical storm Ida...I think it was more for the east side of the parish than us here. At our house it has not rained nor has the wind blown very hard!

Well I'm off to fix dinner for everyone. I will keep you posted as we stay posted.


Here is a picture from the scene....

Here it is on better days....

He was so funny in the ER, he looked at me with his neck still in a brace and all and tubes and hoses stuff every where and said...I lost my sunglasses. All I could do was smile.

Blessings,

H E L L .....

I really don't know where to start! Today has been an emotional roller coster. First and for most praise to God that my husband is still alive! Some of you may or may not know that my husband is a traffic deputy with the St. Tammany parish sheriff's dept, which means he rides a motorbike for a living. Well Friday afternoon about 12:45 or so he was struck by a pickup truck while escorting a funeral procession. It was 7 long hours in the ER and lots and lots of CT's and X-rays. The great news is he is alive!! It could have been much worse. For now we know that he has a broken left knee, some broken bones in his right toes and very bruised ribs. He is in the hospital and we are not sure when he will come home....they do not think that he needs surgery at this time, he may in the future, but the prayer is that the bones do not shift and heal where they are. His meniscus maybe torn too, but that will be addressed at a later date as that is not an emergency, he is being observed for any internal injuries in the abdomin area. I am still in a complete fog and all I can do is still aks for you to please keep him and the kids in your prayer, please! Not sure if the link below will work, but there is a picture of his bike and a short write up that was on the news.
http://www.wwltv.com/news/Deputy-leading-funeral-procession-is-struck-by-car-69410822.html
I will try to update as much as possible...just please pray for him and the kids that they may know a little sense of peace...Please and thank you in advance. I would also love to thank all of my friends who came to the hospital to lend me support. I am doing fine...still a little foggy, but I am OK, just trying to get my barrings...But a big THANK YOU for being there for me!!! I love y'all!

Greetings...
Not much to report here.
Knock on wood all the kids seem to be doing pretty good. Marshall is still on his antibiotic to try and clear up his sinus infection, and he had his monthly infusion of IVIG so we are hoping that helps him. If not then we will be having x-rays of the sinus cavities to see if they need to be popped. I'm sure he will just love that! So I am hoping since the doctor increased his dose of IVIG that will help it improve.
I really need to fit in Amelia's blood counts in this month. I just hate to have to get it done. I think I just don't want to be disappointed, I can't stand the fact that transplant is lurking over our heads!! I'm not ready, well is one really ever ready for that?!!? I just can't stand to watch another child of mine go through pure hell! Watching them in so much pain with out being able to help them. Having to do it with out my husband by my side and no shoulder to cry on is hard too. I know that he hates it too, but unfortunately he has to stay here and work so we can keep the insurance to be able to get her treated! Sometimes this situation really bites big time! I really try most days to put it so far in the back of my mind...but its like the big elephant in the room no one wants to talk about. I'm not ready to have my family separated for 4- 5 months if not longer. Poor Marshall was in the hospital for 5 solid months and we were in Minnesota for almost 8 months. I know the situation sucks and it is what it is and there is no changing it and with that being said...I will put it out of my mind for today, find a distraction and just be thankful for the days that we have that we can live and enjoy life together!!
Sorry sometimes I just need to vent! I have all these thoughts bottled up inside, I really try hard not to let Amelia see that it bothers me, because then how would that help her. She is a smart little cookie and I know she knows it is coming...she watched her brother go through it all and well that is just something that sticks with ya!
Anyway we are off to get passports and see if the kids need them. For some reason we can't seem to find Amelia's birth certificate, so know we have to go and get one of those. I just can't seem to remember what we needed it for last and it's not with the rest of ours in the fire safe, so I have no idea where to look! Then if we need passports for them, that's gonna be fun, I can't get them and Ty can't get them we both have to be there together with the child present. I really hate to spend the money getting them passports, but in the long run I guess it is better to be safe than sorry...and with our luck you never know what could just happen!!!
Any way since I am rambling here, let me just say that last nights dinner was delicious! We went to the Texas de Brazil...we ate way too much steak, but it was all so good, I think my favorite two are the bacon wrapped filet mignon and the flank steak...they just kinda melt in your mouth...yummy!
Well I think I have bored you enough and its time to get going...so until the next update...have a great day.


PS...Perseverance paid off I found Amelia's birth certificate!!! It was stuck behind Marshall's!

just a boring update....

Not much happening here. I'm still in therapy but improving daily. The kids for now are doing fairly well. Quick knock on wood, no one is sick. Tomorrow is a busy day for us. Marshall has his monthly IVIG infusion. While he is there I will be going to Therapy for and hour and a half. Then once we get finished with IVIG, it is home for a quick bath and change. My sweet hubby set up a sitter for us so that we could go out to eat for my birthday. My birthday isn't until Sunday, but since he has to work this weekend and couldn't get off on Sunday due to a Veterans day parade and the rest of the motorcycle division is out of town at a skills competition. We use to go to them, but since we have to buy all his equipment it wasn't worth tearing up his work boots, especially when they are about 200 dollars a pair, sometimes more!
Anyway, he is taking me with some good friends of ours(hi Heather, Hi Susan!) to eat at Texas de Brazil. So tomorrow is going to be very busy. So I think I am going to bed early tonight, because I am tired and I feel like I am getting sinus troubles. I stayed up late last night watching the Saints game....boy was that a game!! Any hooo I'm off to finish watching biggest looser and then hit the sack, hope you have a wonderful day!

Scenes from our weekend.....

First up on Friday was, Mom's moments at Nate's school....


Then on to the Jr high for Amelia's fall festival....

Then it was time to go home and finish baking and making...cakes. This one was for a baby shower....


Friday night we took the kids to the Y for some family fun for a little while, then on to get some Pizza!
Saturday was chaos, the front blower on the van quit blowing, so Ty spent the morning at the dealership trying to get it fixed and the Service engine soon light was on. I was home preparing for the night. More like fighting with two kids who couldn't make up their minds on what they were going to be.....
Nate was the great North American Hunter...I have no idea where he comes up with this stuff!

Amelia, well I have no idea what she was, she's 9 going on 18 with a mind of her own! Here she is with some friend, Trick~or~Treating... I think she was a witch...she for got her broom at home and her hat.... but they all still had fun.

After the kids gave out on trick~or~treating we headed to Madisonville to go to the old Jail that is now a museum..they decorate and all and let the kids play it was fin they had hot dogs, candy and drinks there.




Then we headed home for the party at our house....
and Sunday found us at yet another party, a birthday party. I made the cake for that one too but don't seem to have any pictures. It was plain Jane, white trimmed in green with Buzz Lightyear sitting on top. Well that was the jest of our weekend. Hope you all enjoyed your weekend and had a great Halloween. Happy Fall Y'all!!!