PROVERBS 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths STRAIGHT.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

We have been so busy! We went out on Friday the 1st with some very old classmates of mine from Jr high school. It was so much fun to see everybody! We do that once a year when our friend Scott comes into town to see his family.
Scott:

Larry:

Gina(who I haven't seen since about the 6th grade!!)


On Saturday night we went out again to celebrate a very good friends birthday. We had a blast as we usually do at Adobe's! Mango Margarita's need I say more!








Sunday we were at other great friends house for the Saints game and some good food!
Monday we had errands to run and therapy for Ty. I made it back to the gym finally! Today is more running errands and groceries, IVIG for Marshall, but thankfully Ty is going to sit with him while I run around like a chicken with its head cut off!! Then Marshall needs allergy shot and then the two little ones need to be picked up from school and brought to get their second round of H1N1 flu shots......are you tired yet, I sure am and I haven't even started. Just the grocery store is enough to wear me out, I hate doing the groceries!!! As it is I only do it once a month for the big stuff.
Tomorrow will be more running, Ty has therapy again in the morning and then I have to pick Marshall up and head to New Orleans with him to see the neurosurgeon to see if or what is wrong with the screw that they put in his head 7 years ago!! I am praying hard that it is nothing major and that the body is not rejecting it, that would mean a major surgery. Too much to schedule before middle of March.
Once again the tree will sit, as I won't be around to it till maybe Thursday. Which on that note it is forcasted for possible SNOW!!! Great just what we need..the whole place to shut down......
Oh well life goes on..I'm off to finish shoving kids out the door so I can get my get up and go.......

Sunday, January 3, 2010

The End

The partying has come to an end and I have been meaning all weekend to do a proper up date but we have been in and out of this house so many times this weekend. The house looks like a bomb went off in it. School starts back tomorrow and I need to get the kids in gear, I don't know if I'll get to it tomorrow (the house or a proper update) We have so many errands to run and Ty has therapy and I need to get back to the gym. I also have tons of doctor appointment to fit in! Marshall is still complaining with his head where the screw is...I am praying that the body is not rejecting it...that would mean a painful surgery to remove or replace it....why is there always something going on here???
Any way I am heading to bed 5am comes around real early!

Thursday, December 31, 2009

The Closing of 2009...

It is that time of year again where we look back at the last year and organize our lives. This last year was a really good year. I meet new friends and lost some too, that I still truly miss, but also understand, but it still hurts. We found out who we can really count on in times of need. We are so blessed to have such wonderful caring people in our lives, like Jamie, Susan, Heather and her entire family!! Our year started of like any other just a typical "normal" family. Still able to make a few plans here and there. We celebrated a wedding in January, with an addition to a new son-in-law (Step son-in-law for me). In March we had the best vacation ever as we went to Florida and stuck as much as we could into that one week. The kids had a blast and are so looking forward to returning again in the near future. April and May came with the kids looking forward to school being out and summer fun. Me not so much, I like routine and a schedule. We managed to survive it and in the end had a great and memorable summer. June and July we celebrated birthday's. Amelia turned 9 on June 7th, a true blessing that I am praying she gets to see so many more. Marshall turned 16 on July 20 a big accomplishment in the FA world!! Our baby boy turned 6 on the 28th of July. August school started and it was time to do Amelia's annual bone marrow biopsy. The biopsy would only give us false hopes. It was the same as the previous year and not much change. It seems that August was a pivotal month and that after it things just seemed to go down hill from there. Ty and I went on a wonderful vacation (the best ever!) to Vegas. We had an amazing time and so look forward to going back again. I had surgery shortly after our return for a torn meniscus. October came and went and we had a great Halloween. Then from there things are blurry, as on November 6th our faith was tested once again. Ty had a horrible accident and is so very lucky to be alive. God was truly watching over him, I think God knows how much his family still needs him here. At Thanksgiving we truly had a lot to be thankful for. But shortly after Thanksgiving we got the news that we have been dreading, Amelia needs to go to transplant her counts are dropping, not exactly the news one wants to hear, but we have known that this was coming for 9 years now and still it doesn't make this any easier! We will continue forward and hold our heads high and pray daily for Him to heal our little princess! I know that He will be with us every step of the way and I also know that along the way He WILL be carrying me when I feel like I can't go on anymore.
December came and we celebrated a wonderful family Christmas together...it truly was a magical one that many of my friends help make the magic. We also welcomed to the world a new grandson for Ty a step grandson for me and Amelia is an aunt and Marshall & Nathan are uncles! Welcome Barrett!
So as this year comes to an end we look to the new one with high hopes and much need possibilities. Life keeps going on and a new day will continue to dawn. I will keep learning to take this journey with one single step at a time and I will learn to keep breathing in and breathing out. Live your life to the fullest and enjoy each and every day, enjoy and love your children they are so truly one of God's amazing miracles!
May you all have a wonderfully blessed New Year. Happy 2010!!!
Blessings,

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Its really sweet when you have a doctor like this:


I can only imagine how hard this must be. I wish I could just make this go away for you. Once must be enough. Repeat in 2-3 weeks. No contact sports and no skating or biking for now. J

This was his e-mail to me earlier, but it still doesn't stop the pain, but to know that he is a wonderful doctor who is dedicaded to making the lives of children better. He is also a great friend!
My eyes are swollen and my head is hurting!! Gotta pick myself up and keep moving forward!
Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your way acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight!! Proverbs 3:5-6

Everything happens at the time God chooses. Ecclesiastes 3
When I finish crying my eyes out I might be able to pull myself together!!!! I knew it and I was already preparing myself for the worst.... her counts were not good Not at all!
WBC (white blood cells) 3.3
HGB (hemoglobin) 9.9
Platelets 18

On top of all of this Marshall has been complaining about the scar on his head hurting at the top where the screw is. Now I am tyring to get an appointment with the neurosurgeon. The body may be starting to reject the screw. If that is the case that means surgery again, possibly.
I just want to bury my head in the sand! I feel like one of those rubber stretch dolls that is being pulled in all kinds of directions!

So much emotions going on right now. I want to go and get transplant over with, but I want the guarantee that she will be coming home with us. I know that, that is not a possibility the guarantee...I am trying to have faith here, but my brain over rides my heart at most times!

I just feel that this isn't the kind of stuff that parents should have to deal with! I mean I KNOW that there are a lot of parents out there who deal with this kinda stuff all the time and it just isn't right. No parent should feel this way and to those of you who are fortunate to not have to deal with this please love your children and give them all of you and let them know how lucky they are.
Thing is I knew, I KNEW that this time was coming and I have been prepared for this..we have to do what we have to do. I just need my husband better and back at work, I need Marshall 100%. I hate the fact that my family will be scattered all over for so long...

I just need to stop venting and just let the fog settle and then deal with all of this!
as Arnold would say.....I'll be back!!!

Prayers please....

We are about to head out in this nasty weather to bring Ty to therapy and then to get Amelia's blood counts done. Not happy to be having to take out my beautiful red car in this yucky weather!!
Not sure if I will find out Amelia's counts today but as soon as I find out I will post them, good or bad.
Gotta run get everyone where they need to be. Then the dreaded house cleaning! But it might just wait till Monday when they are all at school! It looks like a bomb went off in here!!!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

The man in the red suit brought us this year a Wii. We have had more fun as a family playing that Wii. I am sore in places I didn't even know existed! We have been staying up till midnight playing band hero...it is super duper fun even when you have no idea what you are doing!
The weather here has been pretty good, the kids are outside helping their dad in the yard. Yes he is out moving around with no crutches or a cane, which it was suggested that he use, but he is a hard headed Bennett! He had his first day of therapy on Monday afternoon. Which he did rather well at, but Jim (the same PT that I had who knew all about it) didn't like some of the pain that he was having on examination...indicating that there maybe a need for an MRI and that there may very well be damage to the soft tissues. Not the news Ty wants to hear, he is sooooooo ready to go back to work. It is boring around here. Well for him anyway, he has even resorted to helping me fold the clothes...hmmm I kinda like that! I will miss when he goes back to work I have kinda grown to like having him around. I thought he would be driving me crazy by now, but he has been pretty good.

Marshall had his wisdom teeth out last Tuesday the 22nd and we went back today to have a recheck and everything looked fine. He was lucky he didn't even get swollen and he was able to eat pizza and Christmas dinner with no problem. Now he is looking forward to New Year's eve to go to church they have and all night party and they also have a talent show and he and one of the youth pastors, Josh, are going to sing a song together.

Amelia will be going again tomorrow for more blood counts. It has been 3 weeks since her last counts and she is not sick so I am praying for much improvements, but at the same time I am prepared for them to be low..you know the saying hope for the best but prepare for the worst.
After blood work it will be therapy again and I guess I get to take the kids to use their gift cards....lucky me, I always seem to have to put up extra. Well not this year I am not being a softy!

I am ready to start the new year and see what it will bring for us. We are getting ready for our annual New Year's eve party with the Lang's!! So much fun each and every year!
Well I have avoided house work long enough...so I guess it is time to go finish it all.....