Just keeping up....

I'm trying to stay sane and not too focused on the fact that my little girls counts are dropping an dropping fast. I'm tapping my fingers and surfing the net just to stop from thinking about it. I'm sad that just yesterday I bumped her with my elbow (becasue she was tickling me) in the eye and now she has a black(purple) eye! I feel that one of my fears is going to be confirmed soon and sooner than I thougt and hoped!!!
My mind is drawing a blank right now because I have SO much stuff going through it right now! School will be starting soon and I would like to have all three kids in school. Nathan starts K, and Marshall will be starting high school......
Oh so much to think and pray about.....

Pictures again.....

Well Amelia and Nate celebrated their birthdays with a party at the park behind the caboose, it was quite fun and quite HOT!!! None the less they all had a blast.

Here are some pictures of their cakes I made each of them, I also have some more cakes that I made and will have to post some pictures of them soon too......

Here is Nates...

His was easy and it was chocolate fudge and SOOOO GOOOD!!!

This is Amelia's in the process...this one took me a little longer and a lot of work, but it's what my princess wanted......

And the finished product....

I did it all for them...

And truth be told I'd do it all again!!!

SUMMER TIME..........

OK so we had some friends invite us to a local area park, where they have fountains shooting out of the ground and the kids were having a ball.....

Grief.....

Today has been a little hard, My aunt died suddenly yesterday. She was only 58 years old and life is just not fair. She had and beat breast cancer, she had and beat a heart attack.....she had, less than a year ago, bought her a house in the country and was looking forward to only having one more year to work as a secratary at the school and she would be retiring. She was my Nanny and I spent many of summers at her house, she will truly be missed.........

Princess' counts.....

Well I took squirt to have her blood drawn yesterday. She was such an angel. they stuck her but didn't get any blood right away...Brandy...the lady who sticks her was sweating.. she had to dig for a few minutes. Amelia was just so brave and sat there and just watched and never complained or cried. I was so proud of her. They finally got it into a vein and got the blood they needed.

We got the results later that day, but I was so disappointed in the counts. Her platelets were 36, I was so hoping that they would have went up just 10 points would make me happy. Now we have to see what the ANC count is. I am so praying that transplant can wait for at least another year, like April or May of 2009. It will just be a little easier with the kids in school and all. I hope and pray that her ANC count is high and stays high so she can go to school. She loves school, if she was to have to be home bound she will be so disappointed. She IS a social butterfly!!! Not to mention that I am looking forward to having some time to my self. I know that sounds selfish, but I have had some one home with me for about 10 years now. If her ANC count is too low she may be able to start school in warm months and just stay home during the winter (cold/flu season).

So if you don't mind please say some prayers for her....God knows I am not ready to go through this again. I knew and know that we would one day have to return to Minneapolis for a transplant, but I pray that hers is much smoother and different than Marshall's. Plus I really pray that Nathan can handle it all they are so close it is like they are twins sometimes.....

This is the way they usually are....they do fight but they make up quickly.......

Well gotta run, gotta get Marshall to the allergist.

Going to get blood work done today for.......
The Princess, please say some prayers for her
that those platelets are not any lower but infact up some.......

More Random Pictures....

Thought I would add some more pictures of around my garden.....tomorrow is the last day of school and the last day of my sanity for a few months....I will keep reminding myself that August 8th is just around the corner!!!!! (SMILE BIG) Take a deep breath......

This picture is a close up and I just love close ups......