Putting on God's Armor

Blow is a link, it is worth copying and pasting and listening to the message! I have, numerous times, it is so worth it. It was our Sunday sermon this past Sunday and lets just say that I could NOT keep a dry eye through the entire service. As I type this I have it on once again to hear this very powerful message.
I am assuming that it is touching me right now because we ( our family ) is in the midst of a major crises..... we are sitting still in a stagnate pond. No future in our site and a suction hole opening up, the future looks bleak from where we are sitting in the water, but I am desperately holding on to God's promise and I am,
  Putting on God's Armor....
The message is powerful and real. Some high lights of it are worth repeating...If not for your benefit but for mine later to come back and reread it over and over until it truly sticks.

To Fight a spiritual war we must put on our spiritual Armor: 
It's not a helmet - It's salvation
It's not a sword - It's the word of God
It's not a breast Plate - It's faith and righteousness 

Put on the full armor of GOD!
2 Chronicles 20: 15-17
15 He said, “Listen, all you people of Judah and Jerusalem! Listen, King Jehoshaphat! This is what the Lord says: Do not be afraid! Don’t be discouraged by this mighty army, for the battle is not yours, but God’s.16 Tomorrow, march out against them. You will find them coming up through the ascent of Ziz at the end of the valley that opens into the wilderness of Jeruel. 17 But you will not even need to fight. Take your positions; then stand still and watch the Lord’s victory. He is with you, O people of Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid or discouraged. Go out against them tomorrow, for the Lord is with you!”

Stand firm, Don't be afraid, don't be discouraged, go out and face them tomorrow in the full ARMOR OF GOD! 

http://fbccov.org/resources/sermon-series-media/

It is so worth the watch or to just listen to so if you have time and want to truly be touched, please copy and paste the above link into your browser and watch!
Blessings,

Venting again.....

Cause I just gotta let it out!!! I have a friend who I love dearly, but she calls me just about every other day and asks me the same question...how are you today? Well I am at a loss as how to respond anymore, I usually say I'm fine (I'm not in a very talkative mood) then she will say you don't sound fine. Well what am I suppose to say? No matter what I say she says it's all going to be fine, things will work out, God isn't going to leave you now look at all you've been through with your kids.....

I understand, I don't feel like I should ask God for anything, I mean after all did He not already give me two wonderful walking and talking miracles.... I know people go through trials and tribulations and it's always easier for those looking in from the outside and those on the inside just can't seem to see inside.

I never wanted to be the mother to tell her kids there isn't anything for them to snack on ( you can have some bread and water). I think above all I hate it the most for my kids. I know that when and if we get to the other side of this storm they will (if nothing else) will have a great appreciation for the things we do have and never to take them for granted again.....Well one can hope that is what they will take away from this all. It hasn't sank in for one of them yet. I will say that my poor Nater he was always and will always be a worrier. He worries more now about all sorts of things. I told him the other day that is not your job that is mommy's job.

I know what ever will be will be and it will be in His time and it's all in His hands....but sometimes I just want to feel the way I feel and have NO ONE tell me how to feel............
Sorry had to vent and get some things off my chest, the stress of it all gets to me! Going to bed.

Goodnight,
 

Me Again.....

Greetings followers...
I am going to try my hand at blogging again! It won't be strictly about the kids anymore because on that front I can HAPPILY say all is well!
Marshall is doing fairly well and working on some things in his education in preparation to attend Seminary college. I always felt that God had Marshall here for a reason. I am praying that things fall into place for him, he feels in his heart that this is his calling and we couldn't be more proud of him...he is a true walking miracle and now he will get to share his story with other people and help them on their faith journey.

Amelia has made a great transition to High School! Last year at her last year at Jr high school, we weren't sure she was even going to make it to high school. She just finished her first 9 weeks and I am super proud to say she had done awesome on her grades! She has mostly A's and B's and she was even studying for her exams....hmmmm had to wonder if that was really my child!

Now Nathan, well he is following in his sisters Jr high footsteps. He didn't do so well this first 9 weeks. We haven't gotten his grades but we think he might end up with a D on his report card. I decided to let him have his freedom the first 9 weeks, he didn't do so great at his freedom so now I have to pull the reins in a bit and stay on top of him and his home work. Well dad will more than likely be the one taking over that position.

Moving on to Ty, dad. It seems as though he/we just can't seem to get a break. In my previous post I mentioned that he had started a new job. We were doing great, we were digging ourselves out of a hole and doing wonderful....It started in about end of July he came home complaining about his lower back hurting, it was coming and going. Well on August 17th it came with vengeance and has not left, we have been to the emergency room  and 4 different doctors and still no plan of action other than he is unable to work at all. We have gone completely through our savings. He will not be able to return to his current job ever!! What we have found out so far is that he has 3 disc in his lower back that have no "cushion" or  "jelly" between them (degenerative disc disease), possible herniated disc in upper back and maybe something wrong with his neck. I am sure that some if not most of this is related to his last motorcycle wreck that he had in December with the Sheriff's department. We have another MRI to do on Monday from the top of his head to his tailbone and then back to the doctor on Nov 7th, from there we are praying they will have answers and a course of action. I am looking for a job for now, praying that we don't lose our house. I was hoping to find something in a clerical position or a receptionist, but I haven't been in the work work for over 12 years and people just don't want to give a 40 something stay at home mom a chance....so it is looking like I will be looking for something at Hobby Lobby or World Market anything right now to help pay the bills.

I am trying to stay positive and keep the faith. I know deep in my heart that this is a test from God and well unfortunately right now I'm not doing so well at the test. I know that things happen for God....it's His will His way....I am just trying to understand...we have been faithful Christians, go to Church on Sunday, try to read my bible during the week  and do my best at what He asks us to do. I am usually a positive person, even with all that we were handed in dealing with our kids. It's the had we were dealt and we played it....but this time I feel like I was dealt a poker hand and the game is rummy!!! It sucks to not have any income coming in and struggling to find a job. I know that this happens all the time  to other people and I guess you keep bopping through like never thinking that it could be you and then one day it is you! I am still struggling with my right foot in pain and it is hard to put a shoe on with a back, but I have no choice but to suck it up and deal with it and find a job. I really didn't want retail because I knew I would be on my feet most of the day...but I have to do what I have to do to keep our family from drowning.

I promise though in the future my post will not be rants and I will try to keep myself upbeat and positive. I know this is a trial and we must all go through them. I am praying for many things...1) they figure out what is wrong with Ty and treat him, he has been in constant pain and I worry about him with the pain meds that he is on. He has been warned about becoming addicted to them so let's hope he is hearing us. 2) that I find a job that will help some with the bills and that we can continue to pay for the health insurance for Ty to continue to receive great care. 3) for the kids to adjust to the new normal that will be coming in their lives and that they understand a little about the money situation. That sucks big time when you have to tell your kids no for things that aren't that big. 4) for Ty and I the knowledge and wisdom to make the right decisions for this family

Well if you have stayed and read all the way to the bottom I thank you. please if you could or would say a small prayer for us. I am hoping to come to do some more blogging sometimes letting it out helps. Sometime they may be short and sweet. I want to get some pictures of Amelia to put up, but she won't let me take a picture of her but yet she take millions of selfies....go figure!

Until next time.....Keeping the FAITH!